I just reached a point in my life where i dunt see the significance of anything anymore. From family relationships to friends to life and to the purpose of living i guess everything is pointless! Well yea, everyone gets on your nerve often and i've reached this point where you just don't give a shit anymore.

Just when you think you have friends, these people come up to you and stab you well screw it whether its from the front or back. These front/backstabbers just stab you.Stab stab stab stab..haha...Just when you think you have friends they come with this bomb and blow your mind off similar to a middle eastern Jihad dude who claims its for his religion. Screw him. anyways friendship as i believe is a mutual agreement of "using" each other. Well, once signed and agredd upon, both friends gets the chance to use each other and expect things from each other and well when one is not content with the guy's response then well the contract is better off gone. Well, thts just friendship, when it comes to family it becomes worse i guess, the expect alot claiming we are blood. Giving the excuse that we share the same blood, they expect response that the wanna get which is so unfair and selfish. Why is everyone annoying and selfish i ask? Cant people just let me live? Well expecting something from someone is no doubt being selfish isnt it true? Yes it is.

Life.What is life? Life is just a big obstacle put in front of your obstacle with purpose to obstruct you of everything, with purpose of destroying every illusion you see. Screw life.

Life i believe is like a dream. A dream. Yes! Dreams are full of wonders and imagination and just when you get that feeling that it is reality it gets to you and you snap out of it. You wake up from your dream and everything which happened in your dream does not mean anything. Which is exactly how life is. We are all bamboozled into believing this is life not kowing that compared to the after-life, it is indeed insigficant aint it? Think again, "life" in planet earth lasts around 75 years, well thts approximation. comparing life here to eternity well hmm really does not mean anything does it. Then what about friendship?Love?Family?trust? knowledge and all?How bout the dream about having a degree and having a huge house and being extravagant? Does it mean anything?NOPE. The ugly truth says it all, just when we think its all that important and it is a necessity it isnt! Well i searched and searched and i've read that that it isnt about the purpose of us in this world, rather its about God's purpose of us living. Well that is true cuz i believe that we arent blessed with the capability to think further than we are allowed to.Limitations people call it. However, it is said in the Quran that our purpose is to worship God.

Well then again that leads me to the question WHY?

Are we that important and needed by God? If he is the almighty and the superior alpha and the omega who is so great, why did he need us humans beings to worship him? He created the angels and without will they praise him and pray to him. He created the devils with will and they choose not to. Well then he turns to us and reated us with both will and conscious. Well, WHY? He knows the aftermath.He knows the end result and whats going to happen so why create us?

He created planet earth before creating Adam so that tells me one thing, he knew Adam was going to sin before creating Adam. And he even created the forbidden tree that Adam ate fruit from. Wait. Do you get my point? He knew Adam was going to sin and so he let it happen.But if he knew everything why did he even create us? Why would he create satan if he created angels? Why would he create devils then?By creating devils and satans, he is creating temptation to go againts him. Indirectly its as if he wants us to choose him.Howver, a choice would mean to have no cosequences. If i choose between nandos and mc donalds, both would fill me up and i'd be full.thats a choice on food. But by creating satan and angels, and asking us to choose him or the other options, and getting punished for not choosing the right one isnt really a choice.Its a matter of force.What if one does not want to choose Him as he doesnt have love or faith.Then he'd be punished? So then why punish him?Isnt love about choice? If evrything is to be judged and he knows it, then why do we have to go through things which are already known by him. What significance is we all afterall.

So i guess there are two questions to be asked.One is what is our purpose of living and the other is God's purpose.