1 shot,2 shot,3 shot,pop!head blows again...Seriously?Picture the earth spinning in a circle, while spinning its spinning in a bigger circle in an orbit.If you think thats a huge spin in a circle you have no idea how i keep coming across the same shit in my life here and again. There was a time i thought i had a reset button in my life n get to start over n who am i kidding i just have o eventually come back again to where i was.Isnt in annoying that im just trying to move on and forget shit n im back to it again and again. Oh boy, everything is just so perfect 1 second and the next you realize you're better off dead. Or not.I dunno..Fuuucc...anyways,This post is meant for me.If you've read this much then im sorry dont read further as i doubt you'd understand anything. Im just too geeky to have a private journal and too lazy to learn a special language and thts the reason i blog things i wanna say to myself online. So, yea back to me mumbling to myself...

I just reached a point in my life where i dunt see the significance of anything anymore. From family relationships to friends to life and to the purpose of living i guess everything is pointless! Well yea, everyone gets on your nerve often and i've reached this point where you just don't give a shit anymore.

Just when you think you have friends, these people come up to you and stab you well screw it whether its from the front or back. These front/backstabbers just stab you.Stab stab stab stab..haha...Just when you think you have friends they come with this bomb and blow your mind off similar to a middle eastern Jihad dude who claims its for his religion. Screw him. anyways friendship as i believe is a mutual agreement of "using" each other. Well, once signed and agredd upon, both friends gets the chance to use each other and expect things from each other and well when one is not content with the guy's response then well the contract is better off gone. Well, thts just friendship, when it comes to family it becomes worse i guess, the expect alot claiming we are blood. Giving the excuse that we share the same blood, they expect response that the wanna get which is so unfair and selfish. Why is everyone annoying and selfish i ask? Cant people just let me live? Well expecting something from someone is no doubt being selfish isnt it true? Yes it is.

Life.What is life? Life is just a big obstacle put in front of your obstacle with purpose to obstruct you of everything, with purpose of destroying every illusion you see. Screw life.

Life i believe is like a dream. A dream. Yes! Dreams are full of wonders and imagination and just when you get that feeling that it is reality it gets to you and you snap out of it. You wake up from your dream and everything which happened in your dream does not mean anything. Which is exactly how life is. We are all bamboozled into believing this is life not kowing that compared to the after-life, it is indeed insigficant aint it? Think again, "life" in planet earth lasts around 75 years, well thts approximation. comparing life here to eternity well hmm really does not mean anything does it. Then what about friendship?Love?Family?trust? knowledge and all?How bout the dream about having a degree and having a huge house and being extravagant? Does it mean anything?NOPE. The ugly truth says it all, just when we think its all that important and it is a necessity it isnt! Well i searched and searched and i've read that that it isnt about the purpose of us in this world, rather its about God's purpose of us living. Well that is true cuz i believe that we arent blessed with the capability to think further than we are allowed to.Limitations people call it. However, it is said in the Quran that our purpose is to worship God.

Well then again that leads me to the question WHY?

Are we that important and needed by God? If he is the almighty and the superior alpha and the omega who is so great, why did he need us humans beings to worship him? He created the angels and without will they praise him and pray to him. He created the devils with will and they choose not to. Well then he turns to us and reated us with both will and conscious. Well, WHY? He knows the aftermath.He knows the end result and whats going to happen so why create us?

He created planet earth before creating Adam so that tells me one thing, he knew Adam was going to sin before creating Adam. And he even created the forbidden tree that Adam ate fruit from. Wait. Do you get my point? He knew Adam was going to sin and so he let it happen.But if he knew everything why did he even create us? Why would he create satan if he created angels? Why would he create devils then?By creating devils and satans, he is creating temptation to go againts him. Indirectly its as if he wants us to choose him.Howver, a choice would mean to have no cosequences. If i choose between nandos and mc donalds, both would fill me up and i'd be full.thats a choice on food. But by creating satan and angels, and asking us to choose him or the other options, and getting punished for not choosing the right one isnt really a choice.Its a matter of force.What if one does not want to choose Him as he doesnt have love or faith.Then he'd be punished? So then why punish him?Isnt love about choice? If evrything is to be judged and he knows it, then why do we have to go through things which are already known by him. What significance is we all afterall.

So i guess there are two questions to be asked.One is what is our purpose of living and the other is God's purpose.

Most important rule-NO RULES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ; )

loving my life..things seem to be great at the moment no matter how people seem to screw my life up and how i always seem to be moody or sulky.Deep down,maybe not so deep...im really happy n enjoying my life.Everyday seems to be a new day for me,i discover new things,i learn from the mistakes i did the days before.I strive for a better tomorrow.Anyhow,the great thing is i have a clean record in college.The whole bunch of people there do not have any idea who i am.Im just a typical dude trying to blend in there.Well,guess what?I want it that way.i do not want to snatch any random unwanted attention.Trying not to have so many friends.Trying to just live a simple life in kl.

Well,i miss my computer back in penang.Miss my car!!!damn man...haven driven you for ages...
miss my tennis games..i cant play any tournaments.....miss watching football and chatting on the house phone wif frens.miss disney channel!!!!!!!!!!!!!miss channel mtv and V..i miss gurney plaza..

Gurney!!!!!!!!!!!i know every single tile of you!!!but here i need to constantly refer the directory to get anywhere in sunway pyramid.Not only do i feel lost, i feel like im in a big lion's tummy whenever i go shopping there...; )

Classes here are great..im enjoying them to the max.finally education from people who really know what they are teaching.haha

met alot of new people here...finally getting the chance to re-design my circle of clique.haha...

for those of u people out there who wants to laugh at me..go ahead but i am proud to say that i am kinda studying....i want to redeem for the things i've done instead of studying for spm back in 2009..haha...

talking bout time n years..im finally 18!!!!!!!!!
that means...

LEGAL TO WATCH ALL MOVIES
LEGAL TO SMOKE
LEGAL TO PARTY
LEGAL TO TAKE DRUGS
LEGAL TO KILL
LEGAL TO ROB A BANK
LEGAL TO COMMIT SUICIDE WITHOUT PARENT'S CONSENT
LEGAL TO BE THE FACTOR CAUSING MEIOSIS!*WINKS*

hahahhaa..maybe im just being abit too excited...haha...
this year's bday presents were just awesome!! ; )
haha...

thats all for now...i'll try to blog often...see u dimwits!im 18!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

; D

tee hee!!I'M BACK!!

The Start

28th March 2009

So called earth day. ;p

In honour of the Not so smart idea of earth hour, I wasn't stupid enough to turn off the lights in my house.In fact,i actually took the initiative to go and turn on all the lights outside my room.Not only that,i turned on all my electrical devices(Mp3 player,laptop,pc,PSP,dvd player), popped open a couple of mosquito repellent cans,i even turned on my car engine(also the spot lights).Turning off the lights during the earth hour(28th March 2009) is supposed to be a symbolic act to tell the world how global warming may be reduced by lowering your power consumption.To tell you the truth,even a dimwitted ass hole with a pea brain will know this is BULLSHIT.

First and foremost,i would like to 'presume' the supposed benefits of earth hour.

*to maintain the earth's temperature

*to reduce the power consumption for one hour??

*to initiate awareness to save electrical energy

Everyone knows that the increase in temperature is due to the irresponsible doings of assholes who go around destroying the natural habitats and such.By turning off the lights for an hour,you logically wouldn't be able to drastically reduce the earth's Co2 gas. And if you really have love towards our mother nature then i insist that everyone who  supported earth hour STOP BREATHING! You would really do smart people like us and earth a favour by reducing the carbon dioxide gas. And if we reduce carbon dioxide gas,plants will die,and when plants die,we die!So,stop this utter nonsense and go and on the lights...

To reduce consumption of energy??Come on....!If you really want to save on energy usage then go to the nearest 7/11 or any stupid market n go get ur room a florescent bulb instead of the normal shiny bulb.

Now the pleasure of the truth will be revealed.

Seriously,If i were a smart ass convict,i'll be waiting for some f face to come up with this kind of so called awareness campaign. Just imagine all the street lights and building lights turned off,the whole city would certainly be gloomy and dark. And without doubt, this will undisputedly initiate the hormones in me and the next thing you know i'll be in your house and robbing every single valuable belongings you have.In addition,i can also rape you alive and run away without being identified.I can also kill anybody i like and break into any shop that i want.I can also break in the dude who originally planned this whole thing and give him a slap.He wouldn't know!!!

This stupid campaign will never work. How can they possibly turn off the traffic lights. Just to save the environment they don't mind inviting unavoidable accidents to happen. Besides,imagine if the hospitals start turning off the lights just to join in the stupidity.A patient suffering from Dialysis(the kidney thingy we learn in Bio),will not be able to regulate his urea level in blood and will die before the doctors turn on the lights.They would rather kill these not so innocent lives just to save the environment. The only thing they can do is probably turn off the main lights and this will most definitely won't make any difference.So why the heck even turn off the lights?

So,i strongly propose that in the year 2010,Don't support earth hour because its a complete waste of calories(also energy) to actually go and turn off the lights!

p.s. i wrote this post during the earth hour campaign! haha!

-Amir-